i hate the life.....saaaaaaaaaaad

I have been the good guy all along. I have always tried my best. I have been good to all my family and friends. but the life seems to take a revenge. The revenge of a crime i never did. Im not innocent. but I just cant understand why I had to go through all this. Am I so evil? God doesnt seem to listen to my heart. He doesnt seem to see whats happening. they say He never puts a burden which is too much for a soul. Does that mean I am capable of going through this? No! I cant. Im tired. Im helpless. Why do they call it life when one struggles towards death? I know im not living. All I can be sure is I will die. And Im slowly proceeding to it. And the journey seems to be worse than perhaps the death itself. God! why? why me? Nothing seems to be alright in my entire journey to death. thats why I hate this thing they call life...
:'(:'(:'(
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